Perform or not perform...

Performing is a must in work

performing means you deliver

performing means you boss see you do the right thing

performing means you do what your boss expect you to do

They pay you to perform,

so you need to perform.

if you don't perform,

do you ask why?

you don't like the job?

or you don't know you like the job or not?

most importantly, do you see your future in that job?

Before talk to my boss, my future seems quite blur and blur to me

in what am i going to be

maybe i don't want to accept the fact said by others,

and now I accepted,

perhaps I have to accept it in an earlier stage to perform...

now I'm not perform.

Worst still.

Get scolded by boss is not a good thing

maybe I need to make my ear drum thinner

so as not to listen to much bad thing

and no eye see, no mouth say, no ear hear

Although I need to be myself,

but somehow, she's correct-o

due to working necessity

i need to adapt to environment

open up myself and try....

perhaps I would take things in a different way

My boss said, i should be more positive,

this is correct

i would like to.....

and trying to....

give me a week, I will do that to you

tomorrow will be a different of me..

The bottom line of myself, perhaps too high

i might need to reset it to a lower level with more tolerance

I can't just always get what I want

now i'm a small fish in a big pond, perhaps, in a sea or an ocean

looking for chance to become the big fish

Yeye, give me the wisdom,

give me guidance, I will go accordingly to be a better person...

I'm sure I will in a week time,

in a short future

maybe tomorrow...

I will.

3 months of working!

It's been 3 months of working.

Working after all is nothing special.

What you do is the same thing all the day.

Money is really something.

Haha. It keeps you move forward with the heart!

Guess what I do at my working place?

Hari hari go kepochi with other's stuff.

Then, go read some books to add knowledge.

You see, how rich is the company to pay me just to read books.

One bad thing with working for me now is that I sit in front of my two boss.

I cant do many private thing. That has cause my reading mood also decrease.

Every time read books sure will fall asleep.

What to do. I can just keep in doing what I'm doing lor.

Later on gotta set my goal and target for working.

Or else, I'm sure won't get confirmed.

3 months passed and just study book, kepochi, busy body and handle email.

Perhaps this is why senior say they just need to keep themselves busy with stuffs and you'll get promoted.

Haha, why so negative.

Another thing is relationship.

Although I try so hard to get close with collegues no matter what occassion is that, no result is shown. I'm still very not close with them and feel like still know them for the first time.

What to do? Don't try so hard? Be myself.

Haih. Working lar, this is the working life.....