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Been a while dormant, when will the great life continues????

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You and me

You and me
Who wins?
You and me
What could you give me?
You and me
Why must I choose to take it but not you?
You and me
I have every bad thing happening at the same time
But you?
You and me
Work for me, family for me, relationship for me and personal management for me
What about you?
You and me
Only you know where could go wrong
But do you ever tell me?
You and me
Let me know the correct path to move forward
Although I know it, but I'm not in a position to move forward
You and me
Please give guidance to me
You and me
Only the best way is to wait? Or still wait?
You and me
Go other places doesn't help any
You and me
Please....Give me guidance and provide me the shining and yet promising way to pass through....
My God!

Who can control himself can control the world...

He can control the himself
He can control others
He can control everything

But he can't control me

A year after working..

Yesterday, I'm a kid
Today, I'm a boy
Tomorrow, who am I?

Would you say yes?

Would you say yes when the environment asking you to be yourself?
Would you say yes when you can get what you want?
Would you say yes when you get all the things in planned?

Time pass so fast that, working in the cruel world recorded the end of 7th months.
I've change department finally and that's why I start writing in this blog again.
It's been long that I forgot about myself and who to turn to when having problem.

People at my age always say 'QLC QLC'. Do you know what does it mean?
Quarter Life Crisis...
Almost everyone will face it and I'm inclusive.
Recently, I've found a approachable jetty that I can park my ship/boat there.
Hopefully the wave is not big, however I'm prepared for the challenge.

Pen off.....

My ability and confidence....

I'm having a course in Brunei for a month.
Today is the 11th day
The first 3 days is team building, we play a lot of physical games like amazing race, flying fox and abseiling.

During the first amazing race, we have to travel from one end of brunei to the other end of brunei with the van that they provide.
In the middle of the journey, we have to plan on what activity that can be done and the money used to do it. Being in a very optimistic team, we win the journey by having the closest score to our initial target.
Yahoo...!!!

The second activity then start. What the heck, the organizer want us to play games but yet want us to earn money from the game upon completion.
They ask us to organize ourself what games that we want to play and the timing available for each game.
And cannot clash with other group.
Apa lah....However, with the great teamwork, and my determination to continue planning, my team manage to get the score double the other teams....
Wow, double the score leh. It's all thanks to the planning and the methodology that we used. Who suggest it? Me lah...

In the last activity, I manage to suggest the team to use a method that could fulfill the objective faster. although we didn't win the game, we use the correct method to approach it.

Continuously, I'm in 2 winning team. I'm so proud of myself. Memang tak boleh tahan. My confidence level suddenly shoot up to 100%...

Time passes so fast...I'm back to classroom environment. 7 days passed in the class room. Suddenly my level of confidence in a tsunami level again, up and down, left and right. I suddenly feel so bad on my english speaking, my social skill, my chui sui skill, it's all because im in an english environment. I think I have underestimate myself leh.

I want to improve my english skill. I want to learn how to manage my feeling. But, in the end, I think I'm as if like I'm following the environment, the people.

No, I cannot do that anymore. I must fix my kecacatan. I must teguhkan diri. Think what I like. Do what I want to....

Things passes so fast and yet I can't do anything on it. When will I grow?

Perform or not perform...

Performing is a must in work

performing means you deliver

performing means you boss see you do the right thing

performing means you do what your boss expect you to do

They pay you to perform,

so you need to perform.

if you don't perform,

do you ask why?

you don't like the job?

or you don't know you like the job or not?

most importantly, do you see your future in that job?

Before talk to my boss, my future seems quite blur and blur to me

in what am i going to be

maybe i don't want to accept the fact said by others,

and now I accepted,

perhaps I have to accept it in an earlier stage to perform...

now I'm not perform.

Worst still.

Get scolded by boss is not a good thing

maybe I need to make my ear drum thinner

so as not to listen to much bad thing

and no eye see, no mouth say, no ear hear

Although I need to be myself,

but somehow, she's correct-o

due to working necessity

i need to adapt to environment

open up myself and try....

perhaps I would take things in a different way

My boss said, i should be more positive,

this is correct

i would like to.....

and trying to....

give me a week, I will do that to you

tomorrow will be a different of me..

The bottom line of myself, perhaps too high

i might need to reset it to a lower level with more tolerance

I can't just always get what I want

now i'm a small fish in a big pond, perhaps, in a sea or an ocean

looking for chance to become the big fish

Yeye, give me the wisdom,

give me guidance, I will go accordingly to be a better person...

I'm sure I will in a week time,

in a short future

maybe tomorrow...

I will.